One emblem of the moon (family) death (Pluto) person is the family system. The family scenario is so severe, so blistering that nothing, I mean nothing, nothing is out of its reach. It is profoundly invasive and shaping to the soul and there is no escaping it.
As I move through my lifetime I am able to clearly see just how damaged and broken certain family members were in my own childhood. When I was a young I couldn’t have these deeply profound perceptions because I very much needed my caretakers to survive, physically and psychologically. My taboo feelings and reactions became immersed into the underground tapestry for my survival and saneness. Most of us who manage to survive move into the warrior phase which I personally cherish.
Decades later it’s not the flashbacks that I sporadically have but more clarity and placing the responsibility where it belongs, squarely on the shoulders of the adults who were in charge.
It’s strange how the revelations that come forward with the passage of time. They don’t really choose a convenient time or place. It’s a running theme in my head. I can be doing anything and I’ll suddenly realize “OH this person could have made a different choice”. There was a moment when they said YES to damaging their child. Even if it was a split second there was a choice.
Moon Pluto people have secrets that they will never share. Moon Pluto people will likely have known true horror. Real Horror. Torture, abuse and then they are gaslit into believing it’s either not really occurring, it doesn’t matter or is their fault. I can tell you this too: I never said a WORD to anyone about my family until now. Aside from my daughter they have all passed on. And my life is better for that. I sometimes recall the vibrations from the past but know it can’t reach me in the way it used to. I have always told myself it is an unfortunate gift.
XOXO
